Ish dodo

 ish dodo

looking for the hoes, i was with jivamder

there waiting but i didnt know i was waiting for you

ona plane the first time, i thought of yu

being the man i walked to you

giving greetings,giving jealousy, giving away remorse and listening to melodies 

jealous of u with him, tried not to interupt

knowing yu might be dating and if i flirted id b corrupt

though i did it anyway i didnt care

hoping you might notice i was giving a stare

hoping youd feel my presence i was there

but so was he, incessantly 

You left him alone sat with me

making me feel on top of the world,im a wanna be

im a wanna be witchu 

but did u feel the same, cuz if i touched you weirdly id be the one to blame

im ashamed

dammit, shit(isha voice), i once again forgot her name

i dont like wen she curses but i do the same

im a hypocrite i have to be better

but how can i judge if i just want to get her wetter

i think of you lustfully i needa do better

were so cheesy, im lactose intolerant

is this machining am i in your tolerance

you wouldnt understand were in different techs

i wonder if were in different mindsets

was trist right, saying his name makes me mad

but im a Christian i have to forgive

bit how can i forgive myself for wat i did

1 week 2 weel 3 week 4 

i wait for the text but it dosent appear

wondering does her forgetting grow near

or was i still in her mind like her career

i forgit alot of things but not our little memories

is this God saying your important 

or is this me being an attached horny little teenager who cant control himself again

i dont like to say omg but i still say it wats wrong with me

i dont like to be lustful but i still am

i dont like to not abide by the rules of the bible but i still try 

i dont like to not talk to you bit i still fuking do it

i hate myself

but im not supposed to hate, because im christian

turn on your red receipts 

im getting angry

dont stop i love the feeling

be dominant and text stop being a pussy

im trapped in my own mind , no ones looking but i believe God is

although you dont

hating myself cuz if you dont control my emotions, i wont

i was born a submissive person, so dominant isnt my thing

so im jealous of the people who are

and are quick to make the phone ring

although you didnt i waited and waited to hear a voice of a bot

but its mot like it wasnt there 

it was there it my head

but this was bad because i left you on read